If my life had episodes like How I Met Your Mother, this would be the one where the camera zooms in on me, sitting quietly, realising something is deeply off. I remember a period where everything felt heavy. Not loud heavy, maar die stille soort die je alleen voelt als je eindelijk een moment hebt om te zitten.
I remember waking up already tired.
I remember feeling stuck in this invisible bubble of anger, confusion, disappointment and honestly… the question, “Is this really it? Is this all there is for me?”
It was the kind of feeling that made you wonder if you were doing something wrong.
Makes you feel like everyone is moving forward and you’re just watching from the side.
I remember that version of me so clearly.
How it all started
I came in contact with Marèrly from Universal Alchemist. She offered something called Soul Talk. I remember reading the name and thinking this is exactly what I need. No surface-level conversation, no small talk, I wanted something deeper. Something real. Letterlijk een Soul Talk. So I reached out and scheduled a call.
A quiet introduction to something big
In the middle of our Soul Talk, she mentioned Human Design so casually that I almost brushed it off. But her tone shifted just enough to make me curious. She sent me a link, I filled in my details, and suddenly everything felt a little slower, a little heavier, like something important was about to land.
She looked at my chart, nodded softly, and said, “Ah, yes, now it makes sense why you feel stuck. You are not living according to your type.”
My type? What type? What does that even mean?
I didn’t know it then, but that moment was the beginning of everything.
The word that changed everything
When my chart opened, and I saw the word Manifestor staring back at me, something in me went very still. Right underneath it was written Not self theme: anger. It hit me in a way I cannot fully describe. It felt like someone had finally said out loud a truth I had been carrying for years.
Suddenly, the anger I felt in my life made sense, like duh! It was never disappointment or confusion. It was the anger of living against myself, of moving through life in a way that wasn’t meant for me.
As she explained what a Manifestor actually is, I felt every sentence land inside my chest. I initiate. I lead. I start things. I feel truth before I can explain it. I am not built to wait for permission or to be controlled. And when I go against that truth, I burn out. Hearing that felt like someone had handed me a piece of myself that I didn’t even know I had lost. For the first time in a long time, something inside me clicked into place. Hi Fabie, I'm Fabie!
What Human Design gave me
Human Design didn’t magically change my life, zeker niet! But it gave me language. It gave me understanding. It gave me a map of myself. It showed me the blueprint I had been ignoring. That was the moment I met myself for the first time in my life. And the funny thing is, meeting myself also helped me meet the people around me. My mani-gen sister suddenly made sense; her fire, speed, and energy. And there were my two generator daughters, their rhythm, their steadiness, their consistency. And I can keep talking for hours about the rest of my family and friends. Human Design brought me back to myself. It gave me my energy back, it gave me peace. It allowed me to choose myself without guilt. It gave me confidence to own who I am. It helped me understand my patterns, my reactions, my needs. It reminded me that I am a Manifestor who is here to initiate and lead, not to shrink myself into spaces that drain me.
It also brought PinkDo back to life. I thought I was done with it. I thought that chapter was over. Instead, I realised I had been hiding. Once I reconnected with my design, I stepped out of that shell. I remembered I am a creator. A virtual assistant. An entrepreneur. A mom. And I am allowed to own all of it.
What I want you to feel
I am not a Human Design expert. I am not pretending to know every detail of the system. I am still learning and discovering new layers every day. But I know what it did for me. I know how it changed the way I see myself, my family, my relationship, and my direction in life. I want you to feel inspired. Curious. Seen. A little softer with yourself. I want you to feel open to the possibility that maybe there is a version of you waiting to be met, too. Because for me, Human Design was not just a chart. It was not just information. It was a moment where everything inside me finally aligned and quietly whispered:
“Welcome back.”
Loved this blog? Go ahead and read the others, too, for more pieces of my journey.
Hi, I am Fabie
I am a Virtual Assistant, an entrepreneur, a mom, and, honestly, a potpourri of everything in between, and the heart behind PinkDo. I strongly believe in the Pink Power and the positive impact it can have on your business.
Since I was young, I have loved structure, planning, and helping my people. Today, I am living that purpose by supporting clients around the globe every single day. As my slogan says, 'Do Did Done,' I have you covered. That is the PinkDo way.
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